the waiting game.......

The waiting is the worst part. Mom finally had her consult with the oncologist and is scheduled to start chemo in two weeks. She has good days and bad. She's not in a lot of pain now, but her outlook goes from one extreme to the other. Today she seemed so depressed and didn't even want to talk on the phone with me.

I'm so afraid she is going to change her mind and not do the chemo. She told me before her surgery that if they can't cure her she just wants to be left alone. To my knowledge, she's not been told what stage the cancer is in. None of us were. Just knowing what organs were involved, I've been able to make an educated guess. I'm going to try to not seek any more information about ovarian cancer at this point. Sometimes too much knowledge is not a good thing.

In the mean time we are trying to get life back to as normal as possible. Or I should say the world is trying to make us get back to normal. All of the older kids have gone back to college now. They are scattered across the country and didn't want to leave. Mom told them all that they have to go back and she will be there for their graduations.....

So for now we will wait, and pray.................