Thursday, December 15, 2005

time...

It has been a little over two months since my mother passed away. Words cannot express how much I miss her.

I have had a birthday and Thanksgiving without her. I've had Tuesdays, and Fridays, and Mondays without her.... Christmas will be here soon and I'm not ready...

I think of mom so much every single day. I don't know how many times I've gone to pick up the phone and call her. That's what I always did before. If anything exciting, or interesting, or funny happened, I called mom.
When I needed someone to talk to- someone who would tell me everything would be alright- I called mom. She always knew what comforting words to say, and what advice to give.

They say that time will lessen the pain. I just don't see how...

(written September of 2005) I have learned much in the last nine months. I have read that ovarian cancer whispers. I say it screams. It just needs someone to listen. The American Cancer Society statistics for ovarian cancer estimate that there will be 22,220 new cases and 16,210 deaths in 2005. This is a death rate FOUR TIMES that of breast cancer.Almost 70 percent of women with the common epithelial ovarian cancer are not diagnosed until the disease is advanced in stage. The 5-year survival rate for these women is only 15 to 20 percent. This is unacceptable. Women need to be made more aware of the symptoms, and doctors need to listen to their patients. Especially when the patient tells them that they fear they have ovca, as my mother did for almost a year before she was finally diagnosed. It’s so sad and senseless when a woman knows the symptoms but can’t get anyone to listen to what she is saying.

©JsDaughter